Have no fear though; I'm still the same Taylor Swift lovin', coffee drinkin', Christmas obsessive, Jessica Simpson wanna-be girl.
Thoughts run through my mind more than most people could ever imagine. And since I have so many other prior obligations that prevent me from expressing them sometimes I just go crazy. So there's your warning about this mumbled jumbled rambled blob of words you're about to read.
I saw this girl walking around the mall with her grandma and she was literally glued to her phone. Her poor grandma was telling her what looked like the most incredible story ever told and the little snob didn't even lift her head or stop her thumb to acknowledge even one word. SOME PEOPLE WOULD KILL TO WALK THE MALL WITH THEIR GRANDMA!! Let alone hear the famous "sit down and let me tell you a little story."
The holidays really make me miss my gran, if ya can't tell. Appreciate the elders you have in your life people, growing old is seriously a privileged denied to way too many.
Y'all all know what compare and contrast is, right? You know, in school you were given two stories and you were instructed to document what was similar and what was different. Well, remember also being told in school that "someday you'll need this?" or even remember thinking, *I will never need to know this in the future.* COMPARE AND CONTRAST is something you need to apply every single day. We all blame society yet let's not forget what society consists of: US! WE are constantly comparing our lives (stories) to others but we never contrast the two. We are set on the fact that she has this and she does this and she looks like this rather than pointing out what we have what we do and what we look like. WE, every single one of us, are different. We are unique, we are specially made, and we are ALL perfect in the eyes of the only person that matters. DO NOT FORGET THIS!
*yes, my capitalization is me yelling*
Ok, back to what matters... C H R I S T M A S!
If you're like me and watch what you eat and try to be better than I know how hard the holidays are going to be. Don't beat yourself up or waste precious time counting your calories. ENJOY your Christmas- it only comes around once a year. You have 364 other days to eat right. I stress about my weight and I constantly fluctuate between diets and eating horrible... Just make smart choices. Indulge if you have to but not 3 times a day. Work out once or twice a week, not be upset because you didn't go every single day- we are all busy, I get it. If I had free time where I sat at home that would be different. Remember, your body is the only thing that is yours indefinitely.. take care of it; just don't forget you're also a mom, a student, an intern, an employee, a girlfriend, and the list continues.,.
My only reason for blogging is to get all that's on my chest... OFF! And it is my only hope and wish that maybe it will help someone else too who finds themselves in my same shoes.
I STRESS ABOUT EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING- even uncontrollable things so this is my place to try and figure and sort it all out (with that being said, thanks for taking the time to read and embark this process with me).
CHRISTMAS, right, CHRISTMAS.
Some people are so not in the Christmas spirit, and I hate that- Likeeeeee what's a gal gotta do to make wearing Christmas sweaters and blasting Christmas music every single day okay?
OH, and while you're out shopping and sitting in traffic- don't forget what you're shopping and waiting for- CHRISTMAS! (side note- I've been extra impatient this year, so I had to remind myself of this at least 80 times while sitting in the car).
Since New Year's is right around the corner and 2014 was hands-down one of the most fulfilling and rewarding years of my life (my BABY turning 5, a new car, Ryan, becoming a Bull, being placed in my first classroom, etc.) I have to let you all know just one thing- the highs are only so high!
I've learned in 12 months that the lows will always be around no matter how high your highs are and I've also learned that with every good comes bad. Take everything you're given with a grain of salt. Learn how to appreciate the blessing in front of you before you start asking for more. And most of all, find the good in everything and everyone- I can swear on anything that what you think is what you believe and what you believe is what will happen. This world has gone crazy.. Be the tiny bit of good that's still left in it.
MERRY and I mean seriously MERRY Christmas to you all!
My best always,
Ash!
