Impact.

im·pact

Noun The action of one object coming forcibly into contact with another: "cause injury on impact".

I like the breakdown of this word. I find it ironic that "im" or "I'm" is the prefix. I means me. That individual. But doesn't an impact require another object or more than one? Interesting.

I have no idea why but I have let someone take such a direct impact on my life and relationship and I demand that it stop. I do not know how to make it stop though. Whether it be because of my own insecurities or my annoyingly childish yet embarrassing temperament. HELP! I have never truly lived my life for me so to speak, or in my own ways. I am tired of the direct influence I allow people to have on my decision making and my mindset. Please tell me I am not the only person in the world that suffers from this "disorder" (yes it is that serious and yes I suffer from this, daily). I shouldn't have to live my life constantly battling yet somehow, I do! I wish it would go away- or that person- and I wish it could happen over night.

“Happiness is the meaning and purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence.”

—	Aristotle SO STOP STEALING MINE, please!

I woke up!

Yesterday marks the scariest day of my life, easily. I had my wisdom teeth removed after being put on laughing gas and under anesthesia. I don't do needles, I've never had surgery, and I was all alone. I'm hurting, to say the absolute least. Anyways, through this process though I have realized so many different things. First, friends are so overrated. I genuinely don't have a single friend (outside of family) and I genuinely don't need one. My family has shown me so much in just a little over 24 hours that I'm truly amazed. My mom, well she's phenomenal. My aunt, well she's my life savor. And my sister, well she's my best friend. My mom has done so much for me from re organizing to cleaning to bathing my pup Bentley. My aunt makes me feel like the most important person in the world and my sister has been there every step of the way. Even driving me to what I consider the worst day of my life. So many things went through my head but most of all, I was scared I wasn't going to wake up. Google is my other best friend (tots) and I read that you won't know if you're allergic to anesthesia until you go under it. I was a nervous TRAIN WRECK. But, I woke up... In pain & totally out of it. I'm here.. And for some odd reason more thankful for my beautiful family now then ever (And of course my Bentley for staying right by me while I recover). Life is so good and really does work in mysterious ways.

Xxxxxo
Ashley!

P.s. I never realized how genuine people are until I met my neighbors. They're truly just awesome! Arvie and Chris... THANK YOU!

I blame social media!

Yesterday was one week of peaceful quietness. I deleted all three social media accounts (facebook, instagram, and twitter) and I have noticed a drastic change in my life. I no longer know what Sally did Monday, what June ate on Sunday, or what outfit Sarah wore to the club Saturday. And let me tell you, what goes on in Ashley's life has improved tremendously. I don't have to "please" anyone or check on anyone or even follow anyone. I can truly live my life for me and focus on my relationship and my child. I am not saying social media is a bad thing but I am saying that being addicted to your phone and literally having a need to check all three constantly, is a TERRIBLE thing. My relationship has truly improved in just one week. Yes, one week. I have spent more time with Kayden, even if it means just sitting on the couch. And my grades have even improved in S E V E N days. I sometimes feel lonely because I am not kept in the loop so to speak, but I honestly have found myself much happier. I don't get offended by posts, or feel the urge to check up on people, or even the occasional stalking of my past. I don't know about you but I allowed social media to consume way too much of my time and most importantly, my life. I no longer have any type of drama and have even cut off communication with people because of it.  I just feel so different now, and I really think it's a good different. And yes, social media is totally to blame. I thought I would share for those of you who may not realize that social media consumes way too much of our lives.

X's and O's
Ashleyyyyy

Just What I Needed!

I have been having those days lately where everything that is going on seems to linger around with me. I can't seem to "shake it off" or just let go! I recently got into a huge confrontation and it is weighing heavily on my mind. Needless to say, I haven't been able to focus on much of anything. Not to mention, this tragedy in Boston has my stomach turning and my heart aching. My thoughts and prayers are with all of the people involved in this tragedy. The cop who passed away, the one in critical condition, the runners who died, the ones who are still fighting for their lives, and all of the families suffering because of this too. I am praying for America, hard.

               credit to www.twitter.com

With my mind everywhere, my thoughts jumbled  and my heart beat up the way it is, NOTHING and I mean nothing soothed my soul more then dinner with all of the fabulous women in my life last night. Talk about a break from reality and a dose of therapy. We shared lots of laughs, celebrated my Grandma's 69th Birthday, and enjoyed each others company. Here is a look at how great of a time we all had at Cheddars.

Three Generations

                                 

Lots and LOTS of laughs 

And Finally, ALL THE GIRLS :)

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Never knew skinny could taste so good!

I don't know about you but there is something so refreshing about strawberries and kiwis, especially together. Since I had time this morning I whipped together this EASY, YUMMY, HEALTHY smoothie. ENJOY! 

 Strawberry Kiwi Smoothie:

1 1/4 Cup of apple juice

1 Banana

1 Kiwi

5 Strawberries

1 1/2 teaspoon of honey 

X's and O's
Ash!

Sunny with a chance of sprinkles!

Today, I had breakfast with little man. Yes, you're seeing it right, TWO chocolate donuts with frosting AND sprinkles. Best part about it is, he only eats the frosting, forget the bread!

I have been running around in circles this weekend with so much on my mind that this little outing was exactly what I needed. I forget that being a mommy can  be so easy sometimes. (I mean look at that smile!)

I can never thank God enough for this beautiful bundle of joy especially on days like today.

X's and O's-

Ashley