Believe

I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, trust me. But I also believe that with every bad situation good always follows. I could not, will not, would not, even try to understand this rollercoaster I've been on for 5 months but I will tell you one thing: every single time I get close to something I get it snatched right away from me. Like I'm being teased. By God though? How do you justify something like that? You can't. So instead, I will take the bad and trust that there is good. I'm learning to be thankful for the little bit I do get (even if it's a short amount of time) rather than nothing at all. "It's better to have loved once than not at all." I suppose? 

I don't know why things happen the way they do and I'm not gonna even try to. I do know that life has a funny way of teaching lessons, even if it means knocking you flat on your face. Fall seven times stand up eight they say. 

Trust the path even if you don't know where it leads.. Sounds easy.. Walk down a sidewalk late at night and see how uneasy you feel. Life is portrayed to be so easy when really it's the hardest thing to understand. Something as simple as a smile can make someone's whole entire 24 hour day? But something as bad as a dirty look can ruin it too? Good and bad y'all. Life is one big, hypocritical, controversial, weird thing. But it's beautiful. Anywhere you are, any time of your day, you can turn a direction and find a beautiful site. I will guarantee that. That's life. And that's beautiful. 

God sends his toughest battles to his strongest soliders... Makes sense. But damn, I'm tired of fighting. Can the war be over? 

When you find someone that makes you smile, hold on like hell. When you find someone who makes you look forward to tomorrow, fight like hell. When you find someone who has all of the answers, LOVE like hell. Don't ever let a good thing slip away being stuck on a bad. 

Lesson learned. The hard way. 

Trust, TRUST, that there is always good followed by bad. Stop trying, start doing. Time is moving even when you are standing still. Stop thinking, wondering, hoping, and pretending. Just live. It's a free gift and you can spend it however you want too. 

My broken heart has taught me so many things, it's just about time I start listening to it so it can be whole again. 

I used to believe that true love was a friendship set on fire. No. Not at all. There's a fine line between a lover and a friend. When the two cross though, the whole world could be set on fire it's so pure. Find that. I want to find that. And the best part is, I ALMOST did. After losing every thing I thought I wanted I truly know just exactly what I do forever want. And my bad broken heart taught me that very good thing. 

Pray y'all. I can't even begin to express how much it can do. Pray. Every single chance you get <3

Best,

Ash