I don’t ever wanna be mistaken as one of those so-called Christians that prays only in time of need. So much, that I don’t even wanna be one of those bloggers that pours all the sadness out of her heart and never shares any good. I don’t know if ‘’good things happen to those who wait” or “everything happens for a reason” BUT I do know one thing- I have never in my life been happier than I am right this very second.
It’s Monday, it’s pouring, I got hardly any sleep, I’m even cramping…. Where old Ashley would be complaining until tomorrow morning, this Ashley is smiling ear to ear.
I can’t even offer advice to anyone anymore, I can’t remember what the struggle felt like, and I can’t remember what it feels like to miss someone so much it physically hurts. I am genuinely, so blissfully happy, I can’t blink my eyes without being scared to miss a second of this perfect life. I can’t even remember what a broken heart feels like being I found someone who makes it all fade away.
I don’t want to be labeled as “one of those girls” who meets a guy, falls in love, swears she’s getting married, and even knows “he’s the one” after two months BUTTTTTTTTTTTT I am so certain God sent me an angel. My path crossed Ryan’s for a reason. Every second spent with him I’m convinced will be the best days of my life.
Enough of me. I can offer new advice, and that makes me just as happy.
Don’t worry about finding the right person, be the right person. Talk to as many guys as you physically can keep up with. NOTICE I said talk, not sleep with. Let 5 guys fill your head with compliments, your phone with good morning texts, and your social networks some attention. You don’t have to act on it, fun-innocent-harmless flirting. WATCH what it does to your ego, confidence, and self-esteem. The absolute second you start loving yourself watch the woman you become. That was all it took. While my broken heart did everything it could to break me completely I was busy working on me. A heart break can shape you into a new person so long as you’re willing to let it. The healing part hurts.. The moving on part sucks.. The letting go part is MISERABLE, but the reward……. Priceless. T R U S T M E. Embrace your struggle. I’d go through it all, all over again. Even 13 more times if I knew I would end up in Ry’s arms. Is it crazy that after 2 months of talking to him and not even a month of being official that I already feel this way? Probably, actually most definitely. But lemme tell ya something else- no great thing ever came from a comfort zone and when ya know…. My god YOU KNOW <3
If the only purpose Ryan has in my life is to get me over my ex.. I am more than thankful in that alone. But to experience what it’s like to be treated right, to be cared about, to know that you’re the first thing someone thinks of and the last thing too, to know that your best interest comes before theirs, to be with someone who so badly wants to be with you too, to be put second and your child first, to know a man that has goals and ambitions, to be around a boy who wants to be around your family…… THAT is more than I could ever ask for.
To live a life where I can breathe in air a different way, see good in every situation, person, thing, to know God more and thank God daily, to love life every single second……… that’s called bliss, blessed, and pure happiness.
You’ll know when you’re in the arms of the man you’re supposed to be in…. when he can bring you closer to God without even trying.
See how that works? God shapes you into the person you’re meant to be.. rewards you with a man you’re meant to love, all so that you get closer to him and understand what a beautiful gift life really is.
Compare my post from today and pasts. And know that you too can one day change. Yes, even that much.
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